{on purpose}

I didn't post this yesterday.

On purpose.

It is always SUCH a bittersweet thing. 

And, yesterday in all of the hustle and bustle of work,

I actually had not thought of it yet. Until my brother

reminded me.   My daddy's birthday. 

And, not just any birthday.

A milestone birthday.

His 80th birthday.   

It is so strange to think or type that.

I only knew him for 15 years.

I last knew him when he was 55. 

Yes, he had late in life babies. :) 

That means I've been without him for 25 years.

That really stinks. 

I can't even type it without tears burning my eyes.

And, a huge lump in my throat.

It just really makes me sad.

The only good thing is knowing where he is?

I wonder if he had cake?

It wouldn't surprise me. 

I hope he did. 

I have tears falling on my keyboard.

That is exactly why I stuff so much. 

It's just easier. 

A lot easier. 

Happy Birthday Dad!

I miss you so much my heart could break.

On a happy note.

Yes, there can be happy in the middle of utter sadness.

Yesterday was also my brother and sweet sister in law's

17th wedding anniversary.  

I am VERY proud!

Dad would be VERY proud! 

Psalms 147:3  He heals the broken hearted, binding up their wounds.