{rain on me}

I had mentioned this a few days ago....a big God Moment.

Those little moments {or big} in which God clearly speaks to us. 

Here in the year 2011.  It didn't just happen in Biblical times.

And, on most days, we probably miss them, sadly because we

are so crazy busy or simply fail to see it for what it is. 

This week.  It has been an emotional roller coast on speed. 

Highs and lows and lows and turns and twists. 

On Sunday, I heeded that small voice again even though I argued.

I knew despite all that I had to do {I know you are all sick of hearing that}.

But, I do have many deadlines that are simply LATE.  VERY late. 

However, I knew I needed to go to the hospital and visit Roy and Marta.

I knew it was getting close to the end and I really would rather avoid those

visits to be perfectly honest but, I knew I couldn't.  And, I had Evan in tow. 

I dropped Noah off with his buddies for a game in NWA.  And, then

Evan and I headed for Sam's for some snacks for the hospital room.

And, I picked up some flowers.  And, I strolled through the books?

A book was not on the agenda.  I knew Marta felt like doing nothing,

let alone reading.  Unless, she is like me and sometimes when sleep

refuses to come, I read.  Some of my greatest blessings have been

in those sleepless moments through the night.  I spotted a book.  Well,

I spotted several books.  But, this one, I'm not sure if it was the cover

or what but, I kept going back to it.  I had no intention when I went down that

aisle to get a book for her.   I would pick it up, then put it down. 

There were several books on hope and encouragement.   Finally,

I put it in my cart with full intentions to take it home, look it over and possibly

give it to her.   Once we were in the car, I simply prayed {well, 

pleaded would be more of an accurate description} to let me know

if I should take it with me today or wait.   I opened it nothing being marked of course.

Page 61. 

Here is a little excerpt, I will explain soon....

"Hearts Created for Hope"

We know that all things God works for the good of those who

love Him, who have been called according to His purpose. 

Romans 8: 28

Still nothing too earth shattering.  I would expect a book on hope to 

include writings on hope and the above verse.  Not too shocking.  But, wait....

"Dr. Gary Oliver and his wife Carrie are two of my heroes. {that's an important

word in and of itself for the Pickle family....} Carrie went to home to be with Jesus

in July of 2007 after a brave battle with pancreatic cancer.  Gary carries on 

in his work as a psychologist, writer, and speaker.  I've been privileged to know

him as one of my professors and a member of my church."

The writing continued explaining Carrie's hope throughout her illness and 

how Gary has carried on and where he chooses to focus.

The significance in the above besides the association with pancreatic cancer?

Carrie, well, I knew her.  Well, I didn't know her, but I knew her sort-of.

Carrie was a pivotal person in someones life that I dearly, dearly love. 

She helped my friend in ways that she carries with her to this day.   A huge

battle Carrie helped her get though.  I honestly felt like I knew her.  Carrie

knew of me because I was in the trenches beside this friend.   When

she was diagnosed, I reached out to Carrie thanking her for giving so

many blessings to my friend in helping her get through the nightmare

she was in the midst of.  I also conveyed my sorrow in her diagnosis, let

her know that I was praying for her, etc, etc, etc.  My initial contact

was an email.  She was getting THOUSANDS,  I never expected to hear

back from her.  Well, I did.  And, we stayed in contact for quite a while.

She was unbelievably encouraging to others even though she was

in a battle for her life.   Carrie was a precious soul and has impacted so

many....so even though we never met......I honestly felt as though I knew her.

I dog-tagged the page and as I left the hospital, I flipped it open

for Marta and whispered a very abbreviated explanation  -

she was amazed, had tears and told me should would be reading

it that night. 

I know that may not seem huge to anyone else.  But, of all the books.

Of all the authors that were included in the book.  Of all of the pages - 206

to be exact...............I opened it to Page 61. 

And, I read not one more page of it.  

{i've fallen}

but, I did get up! 

Well, after I rolled around on the wet floor trying to see if I could

move my right foot and left wrist.

I forgot I had a Swiffer Jet mishap that left a flood on my tile. 

Well, I forgot until my feet totally slipped out from under me and I still

fought it.

Not sure why I fought it because there was no stopping it. 

I crawled for a bit.

I am mobile now.  

Sore and hurting, but mobile.  



{answered}

The day it hit seems like yesterday.  And, then, it seems like a lifetime ago. 

He was three.  Evan was a few weeks old.  It started with some stomach

pain and vomiting and quickly progressed to uncontrollable pain.   On to the

ER we went.  I thought it was surely appendicitis.  When the phone calls

started occurring just outside our doorway to specialists, my heart sank.  Of

course, I diagnosed him with all sorts of things within that 20 minute time span,

including polycystic kidneys.  He was hospitalized at St. Edwards as they

worked to get him into ACH.  I would sleep with him in his hospital bed and 

get coverage to go over to a hotel and nurse Evan.  Then, he was stable and 

we were sent to ACH.  One of THE worst experiences in my life as a mom

as the diagnostic testing was EXCRUCIATING for him.  Angela and I paced

outside the doors when I would have to leave {per hospital staff} and then would

return to try and get him through it.  Being tied to the bed did not help matters. 

The rest of the family, well, they were pacing too. 

Diagnosis:  hydronephrosis of the kidneys.  Prognosis included everything from 

one end of the spectrum: transplants {yes, it involved both} to surgery to

no additional problems.  It would be a wait and see game.  A game that would

basically last his lifetime.   It was scary and heartbreaking. Typically it only

affects one kidney, but he somehow ended up with both.   The next several years held

MANY trips to the ER, continued testing, followups, and trips and a hospitalization

back at ACH.   Well, I found out Tuesday night after returning from being with Marta

and the girls most of the day, that we had an appt at ACH the next day.  Not

on my radar at all.  So, yesterday morning the four of us headed down. 

Long story short, after scans and meeting with two different physicians.....we are

released!  I kept doubting what I had heard.  The scans showed stability comparable

to last years scan with good kidney growth.  Since we have not had an obstruction in years

along with no infections.......for now, we are released. Yippee!  And, there always

seems to be a "but" with this diagnosis.  We are technically released until either

a) he has another bout with pain, obstruction or infection or b) when he turns or gets

near turning 18.  At either point we will be back in business with ACH.  At 18, he

will be given extensive testing again and be referred on to an adult urologist.

Although both kidneys have improved dramatically - he was almost as bad

as it could get when he was initially diagnosed - he will always have this to

look after and deal with.  But, for now, we are thrilled and thankful for

the news!  And, are just going to accept it for what it is today.  :)  

He does start have to wearing a watch because he is not doing too well on the

every 2 hour routine of emptying the bladder.  So, he will be "beeping" for

however long it takes to get back on track with that.  :)

We did have quite the eventful attempt to leave LR.  We were going to run across

town and see friends for a few minutes, but the skies did NOT look too good 

when we exited the hospital.  Found a local radio station about the time a tornado

warning was being issued for the area of Maumelle and I40.  So, south we went

taking the long way home through Hot Springs.  We did have a nice lunch 

and because we are getting season passes to Magic Springs this year, the

boys planned our summer out.   CANNOT wait to have them home with us!!!   

A happy, happy mom here! 

{a peek}

 I have a lot of important things to blog about, but, I wanted to start with one

I didn't have to "think" or get emotional about.  Of course, the chickens and

the garden.  I only wish the boys were here as they spend time with the 

chicks every evening.  They are getting used to E's loving! ha!  This is their

temporary run.  They will need a bigger space before long, but for now, this one

was quick and easy.  Notice I still have to paint and finish up the coop.  Is anything

ever completed around here??? 

They have grown!!! 

Everytime  they see me coming, they go nuts.  They know now that I typically

have the outgoings of the garden in hand.  A huge supplement to their feed.  And, 

because I refuse to use pesticides, still keeping it all organic. 

They LOVE radishes!  Cheap and easy!  

 Here is my favorite banny rooster.  So sweet! And, I love to hear him crow.  He is

doing better with it! ha! 

 Yes, I have very talented chickens.   

 The little white/gray one is E's favorite....Small Fry.  I am shocked that she made it!  She was so tiny and lifeless in her early days!  She is very shy.  It's sweet.

The garden is coming slowly, but surely.  Weeds and all. :)  If this rain would just stop for a bit. 



{flagged}

HUGE God Moment today {as Rae would say}

I'll definitely post it, but still need to wrap my own brain

around it a bit more..........

Wow!

{review mirror}

where o' where has my weekend disappeared to?

i had big plans?

but, few of my have-to-finish-projects got finished for one

reason or another, but the reasons were basically out of my control.

but, today, i want to remember a few tidbits.

*exhausted this morning, slept a little later than i should have, but

scott was up and around, so i planned on help from him to get

us all out the door.

*migraine hit, very late getting out the door.

*BUT, the boys  were kind enough that as soon as they were ready

they loaded themselves in the car and patiently waited for me.

*stopped by wal-mart for cash.  yes, no debit card on me, so my

next best bank is wally-world.  i did have to pick up a bd card as well.

*i gasped when I saw E exit the car at walmart.  remember:  they had loaded

themselves.  he had also dressed himself.  BIG striped, multi-colored polo with 

a huge hole in it with brown plaid shorts, mismatched socks and muddy play shoes.

remember, on our way to church.  as we ran to get a card and cash i zipped through

the boys section and got a new shirt.  dressed in the car.

*to church a tad late.

*WONDERFUL service.

*late service, exited the church in a mad dash as the clock glared 12:08 at me.

i was to have N to the carpool parking lot across town to meet the boys. 

*gathered boys and ran.  sat with my reverse lights on for SIX minutes as no

one would let me out.  traffic jam in GW in the resturant sections. dads were

nice enough to wait on us.  i think they know it will always be me.

*could not make my car go home although i needed to.  to pick up some

things for hospital and on to hospital to see our sweet friends. 

*groceries in heels.  with , E.

*gallon on milk spilled in the back on the vehicle on the way home.

*so, i am trying to figure out what to do next.  

*i'm thinking yoga pants are in order.

*awaiting call to  pick up N in GW, and then we will be swinging to 

a car wash that houses a wet/dry vac. 

*then, I will start working.  

*oh, and, I've gone without carbs today. 

that in and of itself....well, you can imagine......

my white flag is raised.

{yay!}

I got this from the wedding planner:

"Great news! I already had someone from The Wedding Post (Arkansas's daily wedding blog) contact me wanting to feature Anna & Michael's wedding! I told them I'd send pictures as soon as I had them. I also want to submit to at least one wedding magazine (Arkansas Bride or Southern Weddings or Southern Bride) and I'm also planning on submitting the images to Style Me Pretty. Just wanted to keep you posted on the plans! "

Fun!