{it's birthday week around here}

 I'm about to have a teenager.

 

I'm about to be a mom of a teenager.

 

I'm watching this little soul become a young man.

 

I'm a mess.

 

A complete and utter mess.

 

HOWEVER, instead of curling up on the couch and pulling

the quilt over my head in relation to the speed at which

he is growing.......I'm going to embrace it and party all week long. 

Because I'm that kind of mom.  Or, at least I strive to be on most days.

 

I can say that with a smile, but there are also

tears just waiting to spill. And, to be honest, a few have.

 

 Birthdays are always so

emotional for me as our precious birth mom is never

from my thoughts or my heart; and, particularly so this year. 

Because of the incredible son we gained, she lost that same

incredible son.  There is no way around it, it's such

a bittersweet, emotional, sacrificial plan.

 

We are blessed beyond words that God intended for us to

have the exquisite joy of loving and raising him.   There are simply

no words.  Adoption is an INCREDIBLE reflection of God's heart.

In every single aspect. 

 

A gift.

 

One that Scott and I were very undeserving of, but oh, so thankful

for.  As we enter these twilight zone  teenage years, my prayers

are stronger than they've ever been before.  I pray that

we rise to the trust we've been given and love him like

no one else could with that eternal perspective never far from our

hearts and minds.   

 

Happy birthday week, Noah.  I love you more

than words can say. 

addendum:  from my devotional this morning....

"Do not fear change, for I am making you a new
creation, with old things passing away and new things
continually on the horizon.  When you cling to old ways
and sameness, you resist My work within you.  I want you to
embrace all that I am doing in your life, finding security
in Me alone."  Jesus Calling.

Can I get a wow?