{'my' goodbye}

i knew the day was coming soon.

it's clearly in view now, despite my dark-colored goggles.

today on the way home from school, evan asked me, "do you know what my favorite word in the whole world is?" i asked. he replied, "mom."

I was slow.

He then asked me "will it be okay if i I start calling you mom instead of mommy?"

big sigh. crack through the heart.

"yes, evan, if you are ready, it is fine."

"are you sad?"

"just a little, but it's an okay sad."

"well, i'll call you mommy for a little while longer then."

silence on my part. {in other words, possible guilt trip}

he proceeded to tell me he has two wiggly teeth on bottom.

i nearly skidded off the road, hit a tree and tumbled down the hill.

but, i didn't.

i just drove.