i'm sitting here yet again. will i ever learn?
last week was horrific. yes, it could have been worse, but, it was p-r-e-t-t-y bad all on its own. let's see......3 MD/dental appts, 4 baseball games, 5 swim lessons (one of which I was 30 min late for because of dental appt. the session was 30 minutes long. no swim that day. which broke my little guy's heart. which broke this mommy's heart) then.....the usual work, sessions, edits, church, and a wedding. whew!
i look at this week. let's add five more days of swimming (for both this time), VBS x 5 days, 5 baseball games (I think?), appointments with insurance adjusters/contractors for recent roof damage...more trial work, sessions, church, etc.
i am not a happy camper with what i've allowed to happen again. i did skip out on the signed-up, paid-for baseball camp a couple of weeks ago, because there just really wasn't a way to juggle and he needed to concentrate on the absolute basic of hitting......but, the guilt was heavier than heavy. vbs tomorrow......they both are dying to go.....it is so very important.....but, i truly cannot expect to drive over twice a day, actually locating and picking up early because of the swim lesson time conflict.....again, something they both desperately need....then race off to a long week of baseball games.......expecting to get my work done. and, all that time in the car? where is my time with the boys? ugh. head hurts. three trips to FS on Friday ALONE. pretty much two every other day.
something has to give. vbs? i know how incrediably important that is..especially when they are both so excited. swim? it's a necessity too as the lack of could be fatal. baseball? the commitment has been made.
i know what choices i will have to make this week, it will not be easy, because i will have two very disappointed little guys. but, someday, i will breath a little easier when i realize that i truly cannot do everything.
severe case of mommy guilt. need to let it go!!
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When you learn how to not let the mommy guilt overwhelm you share your secret. I have a severe case because Britt had to miss swim team this summer because of Braden. Ugh schedules and choices...yuck.
To some extent, I really feel your pain. This is pretty sad, but my boys actually weren't all that excited about VBS, but I told them they HAD to go, because I had to have those precious hours to go to work. So, I'm dashing to Ft.Smith every morning for 2 hours then back in the evenings to pass meds, go to orthodontist, and 4 baseball games. Maybe we'll pass each other on the highway!
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